Processing the Unimaginable

It’s been too long since I’ve updated. I have five posts in my queue. Some about running, some about racing, some about life.

But right now, I have something else I just have to share. Because, well, that’s how I process.

There are some things in life that are easy to understand. Like ice cream. And then there are those things that are so incomprehensible that, no matter what you do, they just don’t make sense. Like sick babies.

Mr. B and I found out that our darling, growing, precious Pickle has a rare (and major) heart defect that he/she/we will be fighting for a lifetime — beginning at birth with the first of many surgeries.

Pickle at 21 weeks

Pickle at 21 weeks

As you can imagine, it’s been a very difficult 24 hours for everyone. There are a lot of emotions — ALL the emotions. And, of course, there have been countless tears. But Pickle reminds us constantly that he/she is still in there, growing stronger and kicking.

If you’re the praying type, please send us all you can. If you’re not the praying type, please send us as much love and sunshine as you can spare. Because we’re going to need it all — and then some.

And, in the meantime, we also ask that you respect our privacy and allow us to work through this shocking and terrifying news in our own way — and in our own time. As soon as we have any information, we will share it. For now, we’re dealing with the news in the best way we can as we set up numerous doctor/specialist appointments and take care of our growing baby.

So, if you’re looking to my blog for posts about running and healthy living and recipes, it’s probably going to be a while. For now, I’m not running. I’m staying active, but as this newly labeled “high-risk” pregnancy goes on, I’m on a break from running. I’ll be continuing to live my life as normally as I possibly can — eating healthful foods and nurturing my body and, most importantly, Pickle’s growing body. Because our baby needs all the strength and nutrition I can give him/her.

But, there’s going to be a lot I need to process in the coming months years lifetime. And I process through writing. So some of that may come through on this blog. Because that’s life. That’s my life. And this blog is part of that.



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22 responses to “Processing the Unimaginable

  1. Praying for you dear.


  2. Prayers coming your way.


  3. Oh, I’m so sorry to hear this. Thinking of you during this stressful time.


  4. Our lives can change in an instant. Prayers and thoughts of wholeness to you.


  5. C

    I had a high risk pregnancy and a baby born at 26 weeks. My baby flourished and the doctors contributed that to taking care of my body while pregnant. Taking care of yourself (and Pickle in the process) will make a difference! My thoughts are with you at this time. Modern medicine is amazing and miracles do happen!


  6. You know this already, but anything you need–personally or professionally–I’m here for you. Or there. Wherever you need me to be. Thoughts will always be with you and your family, my friend.


  7. Praying for your family and “pickle”. After 2 high risk pregnancies and premature births, the most important thing is to take of yourself mentally and physically.


  8. wendy warren

    You can do this! I love you!


  9. louisandmel

    Praying for you, Pickle and Mr B.
    I wish you all the best with everything and am sending along my love and my sunshine. Be strong.


  10. expectantmummy

    Sending all the prayers I possibly can for pickle, look after yourself, you have a strong little baby in there xxxx


  11. Praying for you. I am first praying that they are wrong and your child is born completely healthy. I am also praying for strength and wisdom as you move forward toward parenthood.

    You are very brave, and very giving to share your journey with others.

    May God richly bless you all with His peace.


  12. I can well imagine what you are going though. My doc has told me similar things too. My prayers and thoughts are with you.


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