Lest you think I’ve stopped thinking about my health and fitness goals, here’s an update on where I am.
Full disclosure: I’m still 28 pounds away from my “goal weight.” The closest I ever got was within 10 pounds. And then I trained for — and ran — a marathon. And I gained 15 pounds. And then, over the last year, I’ve gained 3 more.
I’m not mad. Or disappointed. Or stressed.
Sure, I like seeing the scale go down and feeling my efforts pay off. I like watching my muscles come out from underneath my loose skin. I like working really hard at a goal and succeeding. I like fitting into clothes I never thought I’d wear.
I mean, sure, I get mad at my body sometimes. Sad for a lack of progress. But I know why I’ve not made progress — it’s because I consciously made the decision over the past year to maintain where I am so I could focus on other areas of my life. (And, yes, I count the year’s 3-pound gain as a maintenance.)
I had been actively focusing on losing weight since late 2009. My mind, my body, my soul needed a break from the obsessive counting of what went in my mouth and calculating of calories for every activity I did. I needed a reminder of why I want to do this, why I want to be healthy. I needed to enjoy my progress and just live.
Besides, just because I’ve gained some weight doesn’t mean I’m a failure (she says to herself). It means I’m a 100 percent normal human being. This is normal life. A normal life I’ve loved living.
Making an effort at health and fitness isn’t so I can reach an ultimate goal weight. It’s so I can do things like, well, live an active life.
And do things instead of just think about them. And see things I never thought I’d get to see.
Besides, the beautiful thing? I have the skills I need to get where I want to be. I know where I want to be and what I need to do to get there.
I’ve had my year to focus on enjoying my life, maintaining my fitness — treating myself sometimes more than I should and sleeping in sometimes more than I should. But it’s time to keep moving forward — and make the changes I need to make so 3 pounds doesn’t become 30 pounds.
The next step, as I look forward is to bring together what I know about leading a healthy, active life and incorporate that as Mr. B and I start our new life together as husband and wife, ensuring we’re both living our best lives possible — and taking care of ourselves so we can enjoy many more adventures together.
Stay tuned as I dive back into training — a few half marathons on the horizon, and a brand-spakin’-new program from T2.5 to jumpstart things in the gym.
I hope Mr. B is prepared for what this means …