I’ve been on this path of health and wellness for almost two years now. I’m learning something new every day. I’m getting better every day. It’s a true blessing to know that when I wake up, I get to learn, grow and challenge myself in new ways.
With this two-year milestone comes something even more exciting — my blogiversary! When I realized that my blog’s birthday was coming up, I took a look back at where I was in those first days:
“First step: the weigh in. I am, officially, at the heaviest I’ve ever been. Ever. And it’s sad. And disappointing. But, it’s also motivating me to make these changes. From here on out, I’m only looking forward — at the good things to come.” ~Aug. 7, 2009
I didn’t write much in the early days. It was mostly an accounting of weigh-ins and food consumption. And pictures. Lots of pictures of my smiling face. But over time, this blog became a much more important part of this … well … journey. I went from posting four or five times a month to more than 200 posts monthly.
“I guess I don’t often think about the amount of work I’m putting into losing this weight, and to see it pay off really felt good. I was (am) emotionally overwhelmed by it all: all the hours at the gym, all the things I want to eat that I don’t, all the times I wanted to have a glass (ahem, bottle) of wine one quiet Saturday evening but didn’t, all the money I’m investing in me, all the compliments I’m hearing. Last night, another woman told me that I’m her inspiration because she has to lose the same amount of weight that I do — and knowing that it can be done gives her hope. It’s a good feeling, but also a scary one because I know that my life is changing. For the better, sure, but it’s still changing. And change is scary — whether it’s good, bad, ugly or beautiful.” ~Feb. 2, 2010
Change is, appropriately, a common theme on my little blog. Good change, bad change, happy change, sad change. My life has changed in and out, up and down. I’ve had my fair share of disappointments and heart breaks along the way. I’m a better person for every struggle I’ve had and every challenge I’ve overcome. That doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard, that it won’t continue to be hard. But I don’t fear hard. I don’t fear challenges. Most importantly, I no longer fear change. I welcome it all. And I welcome the way it makes me feel. I am alive!