I received the following message on Facebook today from a co-worker:
“Today you look like a different person. I don’t know if it’s the bangs/ponytail, jeans and T-shirt or what, but you look … healthy …. You look healthy and happy.”
This message meant so much to me! Without even knowing it, this person kinda made my week. Her comment, her compliment, was so much more than just telling me I look good or am starting to look skinny. (Don’t get me wrong, I love those comments — just like I love seeing the changes in the mirror and fitting into smaller clothes.) But this journey has become a lot more to me than simply losing weight. Yes, losing the weight is the aim — but it’s a mid-step to my ultimate goal of becoming a healthier person.
I feel like a different person — someone who can do fun, active things without having to be embarrassed, shy or scared. I can do the things I want to do. Run. Spin class. Shopping. Heck, I even enjoyed flying a lot more this last weekend now that I don’t have to worry about fitting into the seat comfortably. I wake up in the morning with a ridiculous amount of energy, and I love going to the gym to lift weights or putting on my shoes and going for a run outside. I enjoy food so much more now than when I was eating whatever I could put in my face. I love the experience of food — from the shopping to the cooking to the eating. And I love not feeling like I’m going to explode every time I eat (just to be hungry again in an hour).
I’ve reached a point on this journey where I’m able to focus on things other than the way the scale moves (because, let’s be honest, it’s not going to always do what we want — even when we’re doing all the right things). I’m able to enjoy this journey for all that it has given me: health, happiness and a body that’s able to really enjoy life. Yes, I still have 30-plus pounds to lose until I’m at my goal. But I’m feeling so good right now that that number isn’t as scary to me as it once was. My co-worker was right: I feel healthy and happy. And it must be showing.